Over the last week or so, I have been feeling really meh, about my passion project. Rarely do I ever feel this way. Most days I feel uninhibited and free to create. No matter what I did, I fell right back into this nasty feeling of not wanting to do anything which is not me. At one point I was convinced I was depressed.
Can you relate?
After spending some time alone, I finally put my fingers on my disposition. It all boiled down to the recent events in my life, my expectations and the meanings I assigned to them. To give you some context, I felt like I wasted the last few years working hard at the things that didn’t matter, things that did not create a real impact in this world. I didn’t feel successful. I recently had my first art show and booking the second, I launched my blog and begun exploring another passion project and community venture on Long Island. But I felt like it didn’t have an impact the way I envisioned. I spend countless hours looking at people who are doing the same thing, but better. At the end of the day, I didn’t feel I was yielding the results I expected based on my extreme level of effort.
I eventually found relief in Galatians 6:9 which says “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up”. My season is coming, and I am ready for it!
Ironically, three people on the same day complimented my accomplishments and reminded me of my greatness. They also suggested that they wanted to learn more about my journey and how I got to where I am now. Each time I followed up with the altruistic “who me?”. Little do they know I feel like I am failing and I am not even close to where I want to be. However, I needed the motivation to propel forward.
I was also reminded of my greatness by one of my favorite Shark, Daymond John in his recent book “Rise and Grind”. He notes, it is great to be inspired by the success of others, but don’t be intimidated by their success. That was it; those words were what I needed to pull myself out of a rut.
What I learned over the last few days:
- Our favorite Girlboss didn’t get to what we perceive as success overnight. There are bumps in the road for each of us.
- Believe your own magic!
- It’s ok to have those low moments.
- Don’t get caught up in the glamour of someone’s Instagram feed. Focus on the work that happens behind the scene.
- The race is not to the swift or the strong but to those who endure to the end.
- Getting out of feeling stuck and unsuccessful is all about being prayerful and looking ahead. It is so easy to be distracted by everyone’s milestone. Comparing your success to another person’s success is draining. Looking ahead is the ultimate secret to staying on your path. Furthermore, God has a path designed merely for us and even though we may stray from the path that God has, He will always be there to help us find our way.
- One more thing: When you begin to feel stuck, don’t ignore it. Go back to the place where you first believed.